currently at home..

changes make me ...

changing can be a good thing or a bad thing
change make me realize who am i
change make me thinking
change make me compare myself with others
change make challenge myself
change make me want to be betterchange make me improve
change awake me to be independent
change make me to be smart
change make me want the best
change make me learned what a life really is
change make me looking in different side
change make me to be more considerable personchange sometimes strengthen my heart
change sometimes make my heart colder
change sometimes make my tears falling down
change sometimes broke my heart into pieces
change sometimes stressing my day
change sometimes make me feel useless
change sometimes make me feel hopeless
change tell me to be careful in next time
change teach me to think thoroughly before decide
change teach me to be ignorant
change teach me to be strong
change ....

i will keep thinking what change to be next time..

dunia hampir ke penghujungnya

ajal dan maut tiada siapa yang tahu. setiap kali berita kematian sampai kepadaku tiap kali itu jugalah aku berfikir bahawasanya dunia ini semakin nazak. dunia ini semakin kepupusan dengan insan-insan yang baik hati. semakin meniti hari yang mendatang semakin aku takut memikirkannya. memikirkan masa depan yang belum pasti. dan pastinya aku mahu menjadi manusia yang berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat. pemergian seseorang yang tanpa aku jangka akan pergi selamanya mennyedarkan aku, aaku berfikir bahawa ajal dan maut itu sungguh misteri. tiada sesiapa yang ada jawapannya bila dia akan pergi. keadaan sosial masa kini juga menyedarkan aku dunia kini tidak lagi sihat untuk generasi mendatang. sesungguhnya aku ingin punya masa depan seperti orang lain. punya keluarga sendiri tapi bila otak mathku berbicara berapakah kebarangkaliannya??? membuatkan aku semakin takut menghadapi kenyataannya.

tanda-tanda hampirnya kiamat sudah terlalu jelas. sudah terlalu terang untuk di suluh. sudah terlalu banyak untuk dijadikan contoh, sudah terlalu dekat aku rasakan. dan aku masih lagi antara manusia yang masih bernafas di atas muka bumi milik ALLAH ini. sesungguhnya aku takut sekali menghampiri hari-hari mendatang. sempatkah aku.... sempatkah aku menjadi seorang ibu, sesungguhnya setiap wanita mengingin kan untuk mendapat gelaran ibu tetapi sempatkah aku. sempatkah aku menghantar orang tuaku ke makkah biar mereka merasa melihat kaabah di dunia ini. menyempurnakan rukun islam ke lima.. sempatkah aku membalas jasa mereka selama ini?? sempatkah aku... aku semakin bimbang dengan suasana terkini. cukuplah dengan segala petanda yang dapat aku saksikan di Malaysia ini sudah terlalu cukup membuatkan aku berfikir untuk memekirkan keadaan aku kini... aku tahu aku manusia yang serba kekurangan.. manusia yang serba tiada.. manusia yang sememangnya kerdil di sisi Penciptanya tetapi aku yakin dengan janjiNYA, aku percaya sepenuhnya.. tapi inilah maunsia kerap kali berterbangan imannya apabila angin datang meniup.. biar kadang kala angin yang datang tidak begitu kencang tetapi sudah cukup kuat menggoyangkan ranting ranting iman yang ada di hati ku. aku sedar semuanya dan aku akur dengan kelemahanku ini. sesungguhnya aku cuba yang terbaik untuk menjadi yang terbaik supaya aku dapat yang terbaik di dunia dan juga di dunia yang kekal abadi di sana nanti. sesungguhnya Ya ALLAH hanya kepadamu sahajalah aku memohon, hanya Engkau yang maha mengetahui setiap sesuatu kejadian yang berlaku. dan yang pasti setiap yang hidup pasti akan mati akhirnya menemui Penciptanya cuma kita tak tahu bila giliran kita..

yang terindah

Semenjak kau hadir dalam hidupku
Tiada lagi keresahan
Kau mengetuk pintu hatiku
Tanpa sedar hingga ku izinkan
Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah
Maaf jikaku tidak sempurna
Tika bahagia mula menjelma
Bila keyakinan datang merasa
Kasih disalut dengan kejujuran
Mencintai dirimu
Merindui dirimu
Memiliki dirimu
Hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu
Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah
Kau yang bernama cinta
Hingga aku rasa indah

désolé(menyesal)

Je ne crois pas que le
vous me faire ça
même si le cœur se sente
vous changer quand vous le connaissez
ne m'aimes plus
lorsque le cœur n'est plus moi
Pourquoi devrait-il saisir vous même une

Je ne vais pas être bon pour vous
et quand il était une âme heureuse
tout de suite même si je ne serai pas prête coeur

Je regrette parfois
pourquoi il m'a présenté à vous

semula ku tak yakin
kau lakukan ini padaku
meski di hati merasa
kau berubah saat kau mengenal dia

bila cinta tak lagi untukku
bila hati tak lagi padaku
mengapa harus dia yang merebut dirimu

bila aku tak baik untukmu
dan bila dia bahagia dirimu
aku kan pergi meski hati tak akan rela

terkadang ku menyesal
mengapa ku kenalkan dia padamu.

a story of japanese fisherman

This morning I wake up too early. Yes I am reading Zabrina A. Bakar book before going to sleep. That only chapter 2. The story how she was determined to wake up in the morning to do some "solat hajat" and some others..@ Qiamulaill. and I wish to the same before my eye close. Then about three in the morning I am awake freshly. I just cant keep close my eyes back. I dont really know how can I awake this early?? meaning I just sleep around two hours.Yeah maybe it is true someone confidently and loudly chat with her friend and make me awake. But then I realized I am the one who ask from the Lord to wake early so I can experience myself as Zabrina describe the morning that started with this early hour and He allows me to wake this morning. Yeah it feels great as she describe, and I continuing reading her book now, Chapter 3. So, meaningful to be share just like my condition now. Let read this story and think together... The Japanese have always loved fresh fish. But the water close to Japan have not held many fish for decades. So, to feed the Japanese population, fishing boat became bigger and went farther than ever. The farther the fisherman went, the longer it took to bring in the fish. There is a problem here. If the return trip took more than a few days, the fish would not be fresh. And the Japanese do not like taste of a not so fresh fish. To solve this problem, fishing companies decide to install freezers on their boats. Fisherman would catch the fish and freeze them at the sea. Freezer allowed the boats to go farther and stayed longer. They thought this would solve the problem. But they were wrong. The Japanese could actually taste the difference between fresh and frozen, and of course they did not like the taste of frozen fish. This resulted in the frozen fish being sold at a lower price. So fishing companies tried again. This time they installed fish tanks. The idea was this- they would catch the fish and stuff them in the tanks alive, fin-to-fin. After a little trashing around,the fish would stop moving. They were tired and dull, but the good news is that they were still alive. And yet the resulted was the Japanese still taste the difference. Since the fish did not move for days, they had lost their fresh fish taste. The Japanese preferred the taste of lively fresh fish, not sluggish fish. Interesting right?? That is they had brilliant idea. To keep the fish tasting fresh all the time, the Japanese fishing companies still put live fish into the tanks. But now they add a small shark to each tank! The shark eats a few fish, but most of the fish arrive in a very lively state, because they now have to swim actively to avoid being eaten by the shark. The fish are challenged. Subhan ALLAH..


She said, the adversities that we face in our lives are actually our little sharks- sharks that we need to make sure we stay awake, alive, vibrant and active. These sharks make us more intelligent, persistent and competent in our lives. But if we begin to slack off in our duties, growing tired and dreary, what do you think will happen? yes, we would be one of the fish eaten by the sharks! she is smiling and thank to ALLAH when she think of her little shark.. and I am.. she cope well with her little shark and that what I want too and she said if I am not cope that well with my little shark then I should get some vitamins to get the stamina. Where can I find the vitamins?? In the Holy Qur'an. Open this treasure revealed to us by ALLAH through His Messenger and started with Bismillah hi ar-Rahmani ar-Rahim.( In the name of ALLAH, the Compassionate, the Merciful) . And at the end, I hope I will be able to greet my little sharks with a big, grinning smile and wide, open arms. And these little sharks that will keep my life fresh...Subhan ALLAH.. I am suppose to read komunikasi or marketing in this morning for my final exam tomorrow but I am typing this story and yet I still it worth to share with others.. keep thinking my frens... "Ketika satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup, pintu yang lain dibukakan.Tetapi sering kali kita terpaku terlalu lama pada pintu yang tertutup sehingga tidak melihat pintu lain yang dibukakan bagi kita."